December 10, 2009

They Call Me Mrs.Grinch.

This time of year I carry around a heavy heart...
9 years ago when we lost a very special person in my family.
Michael Scott Dobbins, 18months old.
December 17, 2000
God took him home to play on the clouds in Heaven.
Even though I know it was for better, I still ask why.
I still hurt just as if it happened yesterday.
I want the answers, but afraid if I had them, I wouldn't want them.
His eyes shinned blue and his hair glistened blonde.
His thumbs always tucked inside the palms of his hands
and how his big bright smile always warmed my heart.
Guys, I am so sorry I am down in the dumps.
Some days in December are easier than others.
Then there are days like today when I can't get it out of my mind.
The thought of what my brother is going through still is unbearable for me.
Because I know I wouldn't have a heart left without either of my children.
So, I ask of you to give your thoughts and
send up some prayers for us and especially my brother.
In 6 days he will face the nightmare he had to 9 years ago all over again.
Death has never been an easy word for me to swallow.
I don't think it is for anyone.
I've lost a lot of people I loved.
Which should help me understand,
instead it confuses me more.
It's Christmas time and I wish he were here.
Even if it wasn't Christmas time, I'd wish he was here.
Whew.
Today has been a long day already...I'm ready for a nap.
LIGHTER NOTE: Mystery Guest Poster might make their debut here very very soon, tonight or this weekend, so be on the lookout for them!!!
"I need a break, but not a spiritual one. I will keep my faith and my trust in you Lord."
-Author Unknown

With all that has been said, y'all have an amazing weekend Dolls,

3 comments:

Rasha (andthisiswhatshesaid) said...

Sorry for your lost. I have lots many close, and its not easy.

Im new to the blog and cant wait to hear more... xoxo

~KS said...

I am so behind on visiting blogs... but I will say an extra little prayer for you and your brother tonight. I am so sorry to hear this little one got called home so soon... I can't imagine the aches in your hearts. But as hard as it is, you must know you have an extra special little angel in heaven watching over all of you now.

Kristin said...

I am so so sorry for your family's loss. My prayers are with you all and I hope peace has found your brother!